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am i am
03:20
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i used to think i’d
tan my own rawhide
eat leafs and termites
live out some bold life eeeeeeee
you see me roll strikes
bumpers on both sides
convictions aside
i’m just unfit to survive
oh love am i am i am i an embattled actor
playing camo in the attic of his benefactor
oh god dannit
am i am i am i am i am i
chased down from the branches of a dream life
oh why
can’t i can’t i can’t i be the bloody dagger
plucked proud from the heart of a deadly attacker
tell me am i am i am i just an actor
chased down from the rafters of a dream life
woke up in mid flight
buzzing round lamp light
too bright for small eyes
fuck knows why
losing sight of the bug in a swarm
i pack to leave but you know i’ll come back
to where the friction is nothing but sine waves
singing on the phone
oh love am i am i am i a bedraggled passer
face down in the scraps of an abandoned chapter
oh god dannit
am i am i am i am i am i am i
ripped out from the pages of a dream life
oh why
can’t i can’t i can’t i be the cold commander
struck down in the clammer of a new disaster
tell me
am i am i --- am i just a stander
standing by on the shoulder of a dream life
ooooo
if i can i'll be the banished laughter
burst out from the cracks of a dream life
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2. |
longlife
02:19
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every day,
somethin
a walk,
get out of it
a maze
a road
alone
i see you here
these old tracks,
are worn down
i see you in ‘em
and call it patience
but fuck, it’s really fear
my my
it’s a long life
what a long time
in a long life
my my
it’s a long sigh
it’s a dull knife
it’s a long life
my my
my my
my my
my my
my my
it’s a long climb
and a long sigh
what a long life
my my
it’s long life
been a long life
what a long life
my my my my my
mmm
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mud
03:45
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once a day or almost every day
i put my clothes away in drawers, check off a chore.
muddy mind no matter how i try,
and so the folding goes and goes. I’m all alone.
stuck in the mud all night while the brain rain pours
make all the world go dry close your eyes until it does because
you're stuck in the mud hold tight while the clouds blow O
make all the world go bye close your eyes until it does, it does.
and the more that you fight it the more you find
you’re thinkina thinkina lettina good thing let go
awf efjjjf iiewl
scrubbing grime ilet the dishes dry and watch the clouds align,
a storm, i watch it pour, lines of rain spin down the windowpane, a little grey ballet, a show.
i watch it flow.
stuck in the mud don’t mind what’s the weather for
make all the world run wild like you always said it does it does
you're stuck in the mud don't fight what's the effort for
take all the time you’d like close your eyes until it does, it does
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4. |
lub
02:32
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well you’re gonna get married either way
signs were painted but faded away
so i wonder if i’ve gone too long
thinking some ways back a turn was wrong
far away from everyone you owe
all the ways you’d ever hoped you’d ever grow
the only one you ever thought you’d ever really know
and i’m gonna be buried either way
you can see me turn a pallid eye
but i’m sure i know the way
well i’m pretty sure,
yeah i lie sometimes
and get lost in daylight
spruce trees, spruce trees
maybe we should turn around yeah
turn around
while it’s still light still light, daylight, still light, daylight, this right, dead light, this right, this right
oo ah ah oo ah
maybe
stop at Safeway
get some Pringles
and then
maybe wander
feeling sorry
for myself but
acting natural
looking round
for some familiar
far away from home
wishing you had anything but what you had
imagining what life was like before your mom and dad
and everything that’s ever happened since the universe began
i'm sorry but i don't have any quarters
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5. |
honey
04:13
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i wanna give you something
but came up with nothing
always hard for me to pick a gift
when all you see is wonder
all i got is bummer
maybe we can try to split the diff.
she's a rose in my head
it grows in the sand
she knows how its been
a rose in mind
a dose in my head
it puts me to bed
a rose in my lense
it’s you til the end
never said love and then i did
never saw color then you dropped in
never said love and then i did
coulda said nothin but it locked in
i’m terrified of nothing
way more scared of something
always standing still till something shifts
in winter summer color see it all you love it
maybe you can show me what i missed
when i met you
didn’t i seem nice?
or was that you?
i think you make me nice
never said love and then i did
never saw color then you dropped in
never said love and then i did
coulda said nothin but it locked in
she's a rose in my head
it grows in the sand
she knows how its been
a rose in mind
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6. |
lub ii
02:33
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throw a rock in the bay
watch the world ricochet into a body
drag an arm on a face
while you pour yourself away into a stream
spoke a thought to a phrase
but the wind took it and now you can’t quite remember
said a lot a lot of ways
but it wasn’t right and finally you’re coming clean
punch me in the face
leave without a trace
hide out in a cave
lose track of the days
and everyone you know, along with
everything that ever made you alive
they say baby never change
don’t change
well maybe today i’ll
dig a well, in the dirt
trick cards, on the curb
sew tags on tee shirts
steal a tank or be a beggar
bow down to a scripture
sell stock, get burned
take the belt from the victor
fuck it all i’ll be a beggar
beggar beggar begger bengger benker banker banker banker
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7. |
letdown
04:21
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talk is hazing
tower's raising
you might understand
if you let it down
but i sit here distant
all day wishin
for your walls
and your world
folded in mine
i'm miles away
don't see you at all
living in lines here i've been dreamin
of runnin' away
a break in the wall
fairytale crisis i've been screamin your name
your name again again do you hear?
fairytale crisis i'm gonna let it down,
let it down, let it down...
i've wasted ages
wavin’ at far-off faces
what you thinkin' bout
way up in the clouds?
won't you let it down?
scathing thoughts that slip between the stone
like you're holding back a line you cast
but i've grown it out and I'm growing it down
i'll let you down, let you down
i'm miles away
don't see you at all
living in lines here i've been dreamin
of runnin' away
a break in the wall
fairytale crisis i've been screamin your name
your name again again do you hear?
fairytale crisis i'm gonna let it down
let it down, let it down.
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8. |
party song
05:06
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packed my shit you said you’re sorry
and i wonder where i’ll be at dawn
i could
steal a tank and throw a party
with a boozy fountain on the lawn
lalalala
i won’t stay at your place anymore
i’m a soldier
a wanted
runaway on a plane to the plains of Bhutan
(right now)
i won’t make that mistake anymore
now i’m older
you can see me as a
cold case with a warm resolve
lalalala
cold light carry in a warm place
cold mouth speakin on a warm face
cold mouth runnin on n on
cold light streamin on n on
cold turn pillow on a warm face
ice cold water and a warm plate
the window open all along
the dream life carry on and on
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9. |
hail (lub iii)
02:39
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i’ve never swam far from this sea separator
i guess i better
row on row on
row on row on
and i’ve never been drowned by a wave made of anger
seems i better
hold on hold on
hold on hold on
i will never run away
with a packed bag and a bad mood
so it’s time to
grow up grow on
grow up grow on
move up move on
move up move on
hold up hold on
hold up hold on
move on
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powerlines
02:42
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talon balanced on a line
ruffle feathers in the slime of the flume
where the runoff never dries
some uninhabitable lagoon
gonna make myself a life in the goo
window shopping powerlines
searching for another point of view
while your friends are flying by
swirling sisters in the rolling blue
man i really wanna roll in the blue
fuckin terrified of time
as the particles collide- a plume
saying everything is fine
bastard brother of a fossil fuel
i’m no no better than a fossil fuel
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will you shut the fuck up?!
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12. |
nocturne
02:18
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i can sleep all day but
i can’t hide in the night
tracing lines all wired eyed
i’m alive at the wrong time
too hot
too stressed out
oo it’s been so long
in out
deep breaths now
mm i've come so far
tried thinking funny thoughts
oh but they get away away
blink toss
i hear em now
mm this can't go on
what did i
what did i do so wrong
i was good
very good on my own until
in
monsters broke down the door
out
oo it’s been so long
clamber up on a ladder forming in the stars
glowing in the dark on the ceiling
shadow flash in the pattern of a manticore
running in an arc comin’ ‘or me
rising up i am mighty i am in the clouds
flyin off the top of the world
ah i see it all
too hot
too stressed out
oo it’s been so long
in out
deep breaths now
mm i've come so far
tried thinking funny thoughts
oh but they get away away
blink toss
i hear em now
mm this can't go on
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13. |
of shaddow
01:05
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and we turned it off over and over
i fucked it up back at some intersection
what’s once is lost
still my ocarina plays
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14. |
headlock
02:39
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awake till daylight
star ships in your eyes
the big bro’s riding in a
banshee
when is it my turn?
story of my life
you’re holding up skates
always on top
plasticky gold
i’ve been waiting
i’ve been waiting all night
to get a try
i’mmaa shineee
watch out mister up there
like you wish me well no
thankless bitter unfair
got me pissed as hell
how’s the weather up there?
cause i wish you well no
doncha wish me well?
a whole buncha waste of nothin
i’m lookin for a song
you’re lookin for a headlock
you say you wanna go
well fuck you to the face ahhh
i’m lookin for a song
you’re lookin for a headlock
you’re such a little shit
i know you are but what am i
i’m lookin for a song
you’re lookin for a headlock
your friends are terrible
why you such a bitch ahh
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